Forlorn

I wrote this in 2002 on a flight from Albuquerque to Oakland. I had been travelling for a while (working in New Mexico)...best mexican food (or new mexican food) in my many travels...Sadie's .. 4th street, Albuquerque, NM.

Forlorn

Both arrogance and ignorance aside
and unreturned devotion notwithstanding,
I bow before you now devoid of pride
(apparently) but not without demanding
a measure of consistency from you,
an evenness, a firmness to your scorn
when daily, with a vengeance, you renew
the attitude that's killing me. Forlorn!

Now there's a word of substance and abuse,
a dismal mix of fear and consternation
that SO applies to me. What is the use...
but wait, let's look again at my contention...

a crack has formed in your facade of late.
There's hope! You're inconsistent in your hate.





for·lorn (fr-lôrn, fôr-)
adj.

Appearing sad or lonely because deserted or abandoned.
Forsaken or deprived: forlorn of all hope.
Wretched or pitiful in appearance or condition: forlorn roadside shacks.
Nearly hopeless; desperate. See Synonyms at despondent.